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Hey, Pahadan♡

Before CAT. Before MBA. Before everyone else's expectations.

A photo of her
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01 / before anything else

Take a breath.

You've just finished one chapter.

And somehow, everyone already wants you to know
what the next one should look like.

You don't have to carry all of it at once.

02 / you

Before you are a
student, you're you.

A person with a laugh I could recognise anywhere. A person who worries too much, tries too hard, loves deeply and somehow still manages to be a complete badmosh apsara.

“You are more than the next thing you achieve.”
Portrait

03 / us

Somewhere along the way,
you became my world.

Not because everything is perfect. Because even the ordinary things feel a little more like life when they're ours.

Us together
one of those nights I want to remember
Us together
the kind of smile that ruins my ability to stay annoyed
A car selfie
even the completely normal days
Flowers and us
and the days that felt a little more special
A pencil sketch of us

04 / a version of us

If someone asked me
what “us” looks like...

I'd probably show them this. A little imperfect, a little ridiculous, and somehow exactly right.

05 / please listen to me

MBA is not
everything.

Pahadan, I really want you to remember this.

Maine nahi kiya hai. And I'm still doing better.

So please, isko lekar bilkul stress mat lena.

IIM se karna hai — kar.
Private college se karna hai — kar.
MBA nahi karna — mat kar.

Tujhe jo karna hai, jaise karna hai, waise kar. This is your life. You have to live it.

I know Uncle-Aunty have expectations. I know duniya ki bhi expectations hain. And sometimes, even people who love you — people like me — can unknowingly become another source of pressure.

I don't want to be another person telling you what you should do.

I want to be the person who reminds you that you're more than a percentile, a college, a degree or an exam.

God is there. He sees your intentions. He sees how hard you're trying. You do your part. Let the rest happen.

Bas stress mat lena.
Ye sab ho jayega. ♡

06 / for one of those days

Feeling like everything
is too much?

Press the button. No CAT. No MBA. No expectations. Just one minute where nobody needs anything from you.

come here.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

You don't have to solve your whole life tonight.

You've done enough for today.

Funny couple meme

07 / obviously

Because we're also
absolute idiots.

We fight. We annoy each other. We say things we shouldn't. We laugh five minutes later. Somehow this is also part of my favourite story.

P.S. badmosh apsara is still accurate.

08 / the part I really wanted to say

I love you.

Not just when everything is easy.

When you're stressed.
When you're confused.
When you're angry with me.
When you don't know what comes next.

When you're laughing.
When you're being impossible.
When you're chasing something you believe in.
When you're simply being you.

You are my world.♡

09 / a little film

Some things are better
felt than explained.

06 / songs that sound like us

Some songs don't just play.
They remember.

I picked these because they carry a little bit of what I feel when I think about you.

01Tere Sang YaaraAtif Aslam · the “with you, life feels different” one↗ 02Aaj BhiVishal Mishra · for the softer, more nostalgic nights↗ 03Tere Ho KeKing, Bella · for the “I'm yours” part of the story↗ 04Apna Bana LeArijit Singh · warm, close, uncomplicated love↗ 05HawayeinArijit Singh · for the memories that keep coming back↗ 06O MaahiArijit Singh · a little more intense, a little more us↗
Put your headphones on. Open the song. Then keep scrolling. ♡

10 / open when you're ready

tap the envelope

my last few words

My Pahadan,

I don't know exactly what the future looks like. I don't know where you'll do your MBA, whether you'll do one at all, where we'll be five years from now, or what life will throw at us.

But I know what I feel today.

I love you.

And I need you to know that your future doesn't scare me. A percentile doesn't scare me. A college doesn't decide who you are. A difficult phase doesn't decide where you'll end up.

So go at your own pace. Do what feels right. Make mistakes. Change your mind. Try again.

And if some days get heavy, remember that there is someone here who sees how hard you're trying.

I'm proud of you.

For finishing UG. For continuing despite the pressure. For being you.

And yes... for being my favourite badmosh apsara. ♡

— always, Puneet
Us

11 / whatever comes next

Put the pressure down.

CAT. MBA. Careers. Expectations. Life.

We'll figure out the rest.

Just don't forget how loved you are.
♡
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